Dress // Oh Hey Girl • Harness // Jakimac • Boots // UNIF • Beret // eBay

I honestly can’t believe 2016 is over, it’s mental to think 365 days have gone by and the absolute whirlwind that has been this year. Globally, I think we can all agree it was shit. A horrendous chain of events that left our hearts heavy. The deaths of many beloved stars – Bowie & Prince hit me hard. The US presidential election. Fuck. A LOT. OF. THINGS. HAPPENED. THIS. YEAR. And although, yes 2016 was difficult for many but on a personal level this year was so much about perseverance if anything.

It’s funny for the last two years I’ve been doing year round tarot readings for myself and theme of this year was strength and without a doubt I have felt that energy in it’s utmost capacity. I actually hadn’t thought about it until sitting down and writing this but this has been one fucking hell of a shitshow of a year and even though the first few months were rather arduous, harrowing and discomforting my efforts have really paid off and not only that but that amount of shit I’ve achieved this year BLOWS MY FUCKING MIND!!! It’s been a year of tremendous growth, if you follow me on my Instagram and blog I know I keep reiterating this but bloody fuck I don’t think I’ve ever done such a goddamn 180. January 1st, will mark my official one year of being substance abuse free and I can’t believe how far I’ve come in that regard. Reflecting on this time last year things were hazy and disconnected, I liked the way detriment sounded. Girl like wildfire. Girl like devastation. Girl like bulletproof. It’s strange to really muster these words but I never really thought I’d ever feel real happiness or find it for that matter but this year proved me wrong. This year was about saying yes to many things instead of staying stagnant in the dark. It was about pushing through walls of fear. Just fucking doing it and seeing where I would fall. And even if I did, getting right back up and picking up all the pieces, reassembling it and walking it the fuck off. It was about starting a lot of things I only dreamed of doing, things that just floated in thought and graced my mouth but never put into action until now. I finally started dance, which is one of the copious amount of things that I’ve wanted to do for years but always felt discouraged. And even though I’m still a beginner I found out my passion for voguing, which has been a tremendous outlet for me and a beautiful and fierce AF art form in and of itself. I finally got my Learners cuz it’s been about fucking time I learn how to drive ha! I spontaneously enrolled in the Freelance Makeup program and am ridiculously inspired by the MUA community and tremendous support I’ve gotten so far. I started taking photos again. Collaborating. Making some dope shit. Met some incredible human beings these year. Spent three weeks in Italy with my family and being incredibly inspired by that trip. Went to Pemberton Music Fest with two lovely souls who I met this year and had the time of my life seeing some of my fave artists. From seeing FKA Twigs in the pouring rain wearing identical rain coats looking like dumplings to losing my shit seeing Die Antwoord for the 5th time and having a pretty wondrous moment with a goddamn rainbow hovering over the stage seeing Miguel. Having my cousin move to Vancouver, reconnecting with her and taking dance classes every week. That one day during Pride, dressed to the nines with my fucking tribe, soul sistas for life, the MOTHERFUCKING HOLY TRINITY and staying out till 7AM. Exploring my own backyard that this city has to offer with my love. Starting this blog it’ll mark it’s one year in about a month! Shaving off my eyebrowz (honestly it’s been one of the most empowering things I’ve done this year) and getting baby bangs. Fell in love with myself. Sat with the destruction. Pulled everything a part and in the words of my mother, SHUTUP. SIT DOWN. AND LOVE YOURSELF. It’s a delirious feeling to examine everything in retrospect, that we are always constantly in flux but I am so fucking proud of myself for having the courage to cast out the dark, light them fucking demons on fire and watch the ashes transpire into something magical, unimaginable and truly mesmerizing.

2017, I have no idea where you’re going to take me but lets hold hands and dance to the sound of the fucking unknown.

Girl like electricity. Girl like pistol. Girl like magic.

Much love to all you beauties.

xx

Dress // Free People • Jewellery // Most rings from SHOPDIXI, thrifted or found while travelling

Sometimes I like to dress up and exchange all my dark clothing for something a little more fanciful with plenty of lace, in what I deem as my white witch looks. Ha!

Honestly though, I am absolutely dumbfounded by how quickly 2016 is coming to a close and to think how prior to this year I would’ve never ever imagined to be this jubilant as I am right now. These images from my Italy trip with my fam jam this past summer seem fitting because after what seemed like an endless trek walking uphill and and downhill on uneven cobblestones we finally made it to the top of the side of this cliff that unveiled itself to this fucking unreal view. I remember looking out into the great abyss of the ocean, trying to take in the magnitude of colours and radiance but this moment held a peculiar sort of magic that cannot be matched. For copious amount of reasons this trip meant so much to me but I distinctly remember how upon soaking in the mystical pulchritude of Cinque Terre, I felt a sort of harmonious hum that flowed through my very form. Perhaps the only proper equivalence to illustrate the degree of such significance would be the feeling of making peace with yourself. A certain connectedness to everyone and everything, past, present and future. A particular stillness that extends its arms in great fervour, encircles you in glorious benevolence and whispers acceptance.  you are home.

Dress + Boots // UNIF • Socks // American Apparel

This is basically my version of Wednesday Adams! Halloween is my favourite time of the year and I thought I’d bring y’all some casual dead girl looks. Although I am a fan of more warmer weather I can’t deny that all the anticipation of October leading up to Halloween is the most thrilling, considering it’s almost an exercise gearing up for the pandemonium that is November….basically the fact that my entire family is born next month shit get’s a bit cray. If I’m honest every day for me is goddamn Halloween because I am constantly that bitch who is a tad bit overdressed and as of late I’ve been having a lot of fun experimenting with my usual makeup routine. This holiday though has always held a certain magic for me, not only do I love seeing people turn out some rad costumes whether it’s witty, more glamorous or a bit frightening but the fact that I get to celebrate my friendship with my two best friends! That’s fucking right, the MUTHAFUCKIN’ HOLY TRINITY all first hung out five years ago today! I’m the most elated to be turning out some serious sick AF looks with these bad boys mixed in with a lil debauchery.

“‘Tis now the very witching time of night,
When churchyards yawn and hell itself breathes out
Contagion to this world.”

 William Shakespeare

And so my loves, I leave you with this quote.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALL YOU FREAXXX. I HOPE YOU ALL EAT A SHIT  TON OF CANDY, SLAP SOME GLITTER ON YO FACE, FEEL FIERCE AF, STAY SAFE AND HAVE FUN! 

p.s if I see any of you fuckers with your ignorant culturally appropriating costumes you bet your ass Imma call you out and slap you.

xx

(My sistaaaahs be real stunners, Meg & Colby & I)

Dress // DollsKill • Boots // Alexander Wang • Harness // Jakimac

Pardon the randomness of this post, my mother took most of the images for the looks and although she has an eye for beauty she was having trouble trying to function my camera as she is not the most tech savy, bless her heart.

If anything I’ve really taken from my mother is that she always famously says to my sister and I, and basically everyone I know is to SHUTUP. SIT DOWN. AND LOVE YOURSELF. Quite the blunt woman isn’t she? These words are usually followed up by, “If you can’t love yourself how the hell are you going to love anybody else?” I can’t tell if RuPaul stole these words from her or vice versa but either way that’s some motherfucking straight up truth there. My mum is a fascinating human being, extraordinary in more ways than I can count, I’ve definitely inherited her complex (and at times savage) intensity, her endless creativity, her visionary nature, definitely her contingent moodiness, sharp sass, and overwhelming generosity and passion for life.

It’s funny growing up with my mum we are so damn similar in personalities that it often ended up in conflict. We both have reactive natures, moreso me than her if I admit it so you could only imagine what it was like living under one roof especially in a house full of Scorpios. Talk about mega intense energy emanating from all directions it could basically make one implode. Actually though. We joke a lot that I am most definitely her karma because of all the shit I put her through as the lil rotten teen delinquent I was and because (this is what she tells me) that she was quite the rebel herself as a youth and I am somehow her karmic payback. HA!

This trip to Italy meant a lot to her since we haven’t been on a family vacation in years cuz momma has been hustling like a maniac, I don’t know how she does it really. I couldn’t quite properly express to you even if I tried the captivating magnitutde of beauty that this country has to offer. These images were taken in the towns of Montepulciano, Montalcino and Pienza in Tuscany,  the countryside of Italy with endless rolling hills, greenery that extended for miles, and just like everyone says it really is like a fairy tale setting brought to life.

First and foremost if you should know anything about traveling with my family especially with my two sistaaaahs (okay Meg is my cousin but she’s basically my sibling) you will hear us for goddamn miles. My family is pretty mischievous, we definitely know how to have fun, not to mention if you get us three girls plus my dad laughing you can hear our maniacal cackles reveraberate like crazy. You should also know that if you get Colby and Meghan together they tend to enjoy singing….and dancing….in public with absolute zero iota of fucks given. And yes, I do commemorate them for unapologetically being themselves I, myself however get embarrassed fairly easily not to mention I know when on vacation and hanging out with them in general they will deliberately showcase their talents publicly to no avail.

We were in Tuscany for about four days and most of these pictures are taken from our second day where we spent the majority of the time exploring different towns and walking up a shit ton of stairs to see these stunning views encapsulating such magnificence. For one thing I’ve learned about traveling to Europe, cobblestones are not your friend. Guaranteed at some point if you’re wearing shoes that aren’t flat you will bail. You can only guess that that happened to all us girls on this trip followed by laughter and then assistance. All the adorable towns we visited had a castle or fortress of some sort, I remember the one in Montalcino we made our mum walk up the shady looking stairs to reach the looking tower she was so not pleased but we all cheered her on considering doing any activity that requires exerting a lot of energy is beyond her haha. It was windy as all fuck up there and climbing all those steps definitely killed my soul a little bit but it was worth it because the views up there were unlike anything I’ve ever seen or experienced before. Energy exists everywhere and every place you travel to holds a certain kind. Some places though they have a specific pull to it, a magnetic connection that only make sense to you when you experience it for yourself. Tuscany, is one of them. Magical in every sense of the word, whimsical and without a doubt romantic. My family and I were completely enamored by it’s charm and is a place I hope to return to and relish in it’s striking resplendence once more.

xx